fontech: (charlie brown thinks you're sensitive D|)
fontech ([personal profile] fontech) wrote2010-10-08 03:12 am
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Anon, I am disappoint.

...Okay, actually, I expected that. But at the same time I am disappointed. Why? Because there is no player trust anymore. Typically I don't even bother getting excited or involved in plots because I know I can't get involved without this sort of wank stirring up about favouritism and whatnot. And just trying it out once when there were FIFTY positions available for myself and other players to have a go at it, only to get razzed about it being nothing but "mods and their friends" (when in fact I am friends with less than half, possibly a third, of those chosen), that's... not good incentive to do it again. Which is probably the whole point of them wanking in the first place. Still- it doesn't seem fair, that being... well, fair is earning this much ire.

So here is a question to all you roleplayers out there:

If mods are just players with a password, why can't they be allowed to have fun when plot is involved?

The obvious answer is that there's too much risk of bias; mods getting picked for NPC interaction, mods knowing to ask the right questions, mods always getting to do the "cool stuff". Since mods are the ones picking the participants and all.

But. You know. It's the fact that people are going "Of course the mods were picked", "It's obvious", etc. etc. is really hurtful, and kind of upsetting that we're considered to be so untrustworthy; that after years of showing as little favouritism as humanly possible, when trying to be really careful about letting everyone have a fair go, this time in particular because there were so few positions at first and several mods did sign up, the worst is still expected of us. And it makes me sad, even if it was predictable. Because I was the one making the random selections, I was the one putting the names on the list. I'm the one who sees all those accusations and thinks, wow, after all the effort I put into giving everyone - everyone, including myself and the three other mods who were interested in getting involved - a fair chance at getting picked. I used a random generator. I doctored nothing. The only ones I showed favour to were active players. None of them mods. And that is because they earned it. Masa and Kyo were given their positions when their numbers were picked after everyone whose number was chosen had gotten their first choice. Susumu was on infiltration because I'd only picked one and my number was selected just as randomly as everyone else. I assigned the roles in the order that they were generated, giving first choice to everyone I possibly could. Hell, I even tried to avoid showing favour to friends or the obvious ones but opted not to because they deserved the chance just as much as anyone else. So I was fair and was accused of being biased. AWESOME. And I guess they expected me to only be fair to the normal players who aren't friends with the mods, or the mods themselves. Because... selective fairness is the ultimate way to do it. Uh. Yes.

This is the first time I've gotten involved in a selective plot since becoming a mod. And since this sort of response is such a buzzkill, I won't be doing it again. Even if it's just a couple of anons being butthurt, it's better not to deal with the hassle. Even if you don't track the anon meme, it always gets back to you and fucks with your day.

So congratulations, whoever is behind this, though I suspect I know who it is- again. I will go back to feeling disinterested and detached from plots after this to be all PC and let everyone else have fun while I supervise. Just like always.

Man, it must be nice for mods who run their game anonymously. I bet they get to have fun during events.

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